Attachment

Reactive attachment disorder is almost like brain damage because the concepts were not formed at infancy, or likely birth to three when such immaculate nature transponder between parents and infants. In relationships, communication, temperature, space, time, and money I can see associations I would contribute to the neglect. The brain damage piece is there is no way to teach these things either. It just really sucks. But, of course I take joy because I have faith my Lord Jesus has great plans for his people. Rad can vary, some extreme cases can really inhibits one ability to be independant. And in the meantime runs a little ragged. Food is the funniest. "oh shoot, I don't have any frosting! Do you think I could just use ketchup?" Thoughtful, brief, intended pause, "sure, yeah.". Serious, the concept is not there in how things associate to one another because that cycle, the Lord parallels many eternal scenarios. It's our job to serve him amidst all this jibber jabber. Oh, and I'm talking about dipping grapes into ranch people! My kids are awesome and I am really blessed to be helping them, I know they will be successful in many things they try. Reactive attachment can be very interesting especially when compared to the needs met and environmental factors makes it even. It is actually an impairment and makes them vulnerable of sorts. Yikes! In it for the long haul, these relationships are blooming and bonding, but getting cheated on that for your child is beyond frustrating. Again, my Rock is out of this world so I shoot for the stars and keep my head up!

Waiting on the call

Got an interesting message from an adoption worker in Iowa this morning. Only to leave her one back and try 3 more times with no contact. I was so flabbergasted I did't write word for word. My take is that a child we have connections to is in placement. Could it be another sibling, now years more of trauma and pain afflicted to them at the mercy of an inadequate adoption worker who placed them in a miserable home years ago? Are we going to get th chance to try and mend the brokennes and wreck? Wouldn't pass up the chance, but waiting til Monday now!?!?

Who is it?
What happened?
What' going on?

Aww the poor babies, will be so mad if my gut is right.

Truths about special ed

I cannot endure the cracks any longer, and will begin homeschooling fuzzy and buzzy on Monday. I nervous and excited at the same time. Nervous that I will lose perspective and not be successful. Excited because they will be getting a better education. They actually have to, as I told lue, there is not much pressure since buzzy hasn't learned anything ins the last three years. So what has he learned? Being 80%. Inclusive special Ed, over the last 7 years in 4 schools the underlying theme is: REWARDS COME WITHOUT WORK.

Not exactly a parent with high expectations for their kids vision. He would fill the pop machines at school, have treats and parties a couple days a week, and whatever else they could make fun for him. He just went to school to hang out. The funniest is they were working on a checkbook in math, but he continues to have difficulty differentiating between withdrawals and deposits. YA THINK? You wouldn't expect a third grader to balance a checkbook, but because he is almost 16 he should be? I am tired of babysitting a program I have lost faith in, and what's that saying....if you can fix a problem don't complain about it. Part 1 fixed. Being exempt from the controversial standardized testing has been no advantage to him. Then, they have the nerve to provide drivers Ed, and recommend special Ed take it to gain safety knowledge and personal growth in understanding heir limitations and abilities, making it easier to accept other transportation plans. But But guess what?

At no time in the quarter did the teacher make any correlation between her grading and passing requirements and the states, so my poor buzzy thinks he is going to get his license, when he got a d in the class and tested in the 60%s. AARRGGHHHH!!! Once again, do you people realize that someone is responsible for this person emotional well begging and it is ME! Now he has to wait to take his test though, this process led me to an error with our adoption in that the birth certificates were never flies with the state, and his original certificate cannot even be obtained by me. Messed up catch tail i get to play, because I am so bored and all.

Homeschooling will be way more fun than trying to advocate 24/7 for my kid to get s fair education. The price may be high with my nerves, but I can do all things through Christ! This is what God wants for our family right now and the natural born teacher in me is having fun with it, but we don't start til tomorrow!

Happy is doing way better in school, thanks to aderall. Both girls are doing piano lessons one, that ring brain left brain should be excellent for Happy, combined with her twice weekly speech therapy we could hope for a university education! Fuzzy And the girls are doing basketball too and I want to find something for Buzzy to do....but he is such s lazy whiner:)

33weeks preggo tomorrow, so there is my motivation to get established with a good routine! 6 weeks til baby girl comes on girls school spring break week, that we will obviously observe, then 10 weeks til summer! We can do this!!